mark the rigger

you know, the very first thing i'm going to do when i get to Virginia
is sell this car
and throw away all the shit you hung on the mirror
i want you to say

i mean

do you expect me to call
and claim that i miss you?

when i'm drunk like this
it gets pretty easy to forget you
up here
on the third floor
in a one bedroom apartment
on hamilton avenue
i turn the tv as loud as it's makers allow
and fall asleep to the sound of public broadcasting

i've been driving on a suspended license for months
but once the car's sold
that thought and the memories of you
will both hitch a ride
with whichever
poor piss
pays me money for a 1999
purple Ford Taurus

i met all my neighbors
and i guess they're pretty all right
but Thomas
next door
says he doesn't like Van Halen
and Guy Down The Hall's dog bites

there are half empty cans of ravioli
a pan that i haven't washed for weeks
and all of the twenty some photos we ever took
kept in a box by the sink

we were young and easily impressed
we knew we'd never grow old
that's why we got tattoos
that's why the very first thing i'm going to do
when i get to Virginia
is sell this god damned car