Do you need this?

Do you need this?

Did you drop this?

Some peculiar form of hope

Doped up behind the dumpster 

Choking on rope 

One chance to vote

For jokes in red ties

I crashed my dad’s ride

On election night 


Do you need this?

Did you drop this?

When the planet began

Its parasites were easier to handle

Now they drink plastic 

And practice accidents

That cover the earth in grease and oil

Until nothing will grow in the soil


You’ve been given a gift

And set it on fire

Do you need this?

Did you drop this?

today i feel better

yesterday i woke up

and the voices in my head were louder than i’ve ever heard

somewhere someone must have been running a sale on bullhorns and amplifiers

in some store where these obnoxious voices shop for ways to be cruel

the voices screamed and marched

and told me i was no good

i told them i already knew this

still, they insisted, i was no good

so i lay on the couch

pillow on my head

afraid of taking the small ten steps to the kitchen

i might misplace my feet and trip

wouldn’t that give the voices something to talk about

so i lay on the couch.

and the voices got louder

as i panicked and shook

and stuttered and looked

for a way to prove the voices correct

they eventually stopped

thank God for my Love

who helped shut them up

today i feel better

tomorrow we’ll see

but the future seems easier

when you’re next to me

still important

we watched them gather
on the other side
and we saw five hundred people
all kneel down and cry

"hallelujah"

we watched you underwater
while everybody prayed
and we saw five hundred people
lift their hands and sing

"hallelujah"

and the spirit came
and the spirit touched you
and i know your name
but i won’t touch you

i saw you
beautiful and radiant
i can’t trust
what i don’t see as brilliant
i saw you
smiling, dripping, secret
i saw you
nothing different, still important

and the spirit came
and the spirit touched you
and i am pretty i sure i know your name
but i won’t touch you

god came to my room
and we talked for a while
i told God what it was like to be alone
do you know what it’s like to feel alone
of course you do

i don’t want to be alone

and the spirit came
and the spirit touched you
and i know your name
but there’s no way on this goddamn earth i’ll ever touch you

movie

so, when a story is never told to more than three people
and the kids never show up to finish filming
we're going to end up with something we're only sort of proud of
it's mostly going to be full of scenes where I'm crying

if you ever have the chance to see me again
i hope that your camera will keep me out of frame
if i ever make you miserable too soon
just write me in a scene where nothing's changed

if we count too soon it's going to be a mess
and there are three words that will make him disappear
it goes
"I love you" 
then I'm left standing in my dress

so, when he holds all fingers up to the mirror
he thinks his hands look just like his old man's
it goes
cover up the shit
with more shit
and some dirt
it goes
i'm going to make sure
that somebody gets hurt

we're going to frame this out shot by shot
then change our minds rewrite everything
we're going to make this movie

there was a calculated refusal to forgive
and a bible
and poorly performed emotional lines
i had enough of this when we were still laughing
i guess it all ended up fine
but still
no one is clapping

i'm sorry
i think we really did have a great story
but the summer was long and my acting was boring
and when i said i was only sort of proud
i meant i was only sort of disappointed
and when i said all those words out loud
i meant most of them
i meant most of them

we're going to frame this out shot by shot
then change our minds rewrite everything
we're going to make sure it all gets told
even if we only see and hear it
you and me
we're going to make a movie

let's get dirty

show me how to money
show me how you dip
show me how to dance for cash
you can keep the tips

let’s get dirty, because we can’t afford the bath
let’s get dirty, because the future’s been forecast
let’s get dirty, because i’m feeling you forever
let’s get dirty, let’s get dirty, let’s get dirty

let’s get dirty, because they turned off all the water
let’s get dirty, because the class is staying sexy
let’s get dirty, because the quiet kills the mood
let’s get dirty, let’s get dirty, let’s get dirty