still important

we watched them gather
on the other side
and we saw five hundred people
all kneel down and cry

"hallelujah"

we watched you underwater
while everybody prayed
and we saw five hundred people
lift their hands and sing

"hallelujah"

and the spirit came
and the spirit touched you
and i know your name
but i won’t touch you

i saw you
beautiful and radiant
i can’t trust
what i don’t see as brilliant
i saw you
smiling, dripping, secret
i saw you
nothing different, still important

and the spirit came
and the spirit touched you
and i am pretty i sure i know your name
but i won’t touch you

god came to my room
and we talked for a while
i told God what it was like to be alone
do you know what it’s like to feel alone
of course you do

i don’t want to be alone

and the spirit came
and the spirit touched you
and i know your name
but there’s no way on this goddamn earth i’ll ever touch you

movie

so, when a story is never told to more than three people
and the kids never show up to finish filming
we're going to end up with something we're only sort of proud of
it's mostly going to be full of scenes where I'm crying

if you ever have the chance to see me again
i hope that your camera will keep me out of frame
if i ever make you miserable too soon
just write me in a scene where nothing's changed

if we count too soon it's going to be a mess
and there are three words that will make him disappear
it goes
"I love you" 
then I'm left standing in my dress

so, when he holds all fingers up to the mirror
he thinks his hands look just like his old man's
it goes
cover up the shit
with more shit
and some dirt
it goes
i'm going to make sure
that somebody gets hurt

we're going to frame this out shot by shot
then change our minds rewrite everything
we're going to make this movie

there was a calculated refusal to forgive
and a bible
and poorly performed emotional lines
i had enough of this when we were still laughing
i guess it all ended up fine
but still
no one is clapping

i'm sorry
i think we really did have a great story
but the summer was long and my acting was boring
and when i said i was only sort of proud
i meant i was only sort of disappointed
and when i said all those words out loud
i meant most of them
i meant most of them

we're going to frame this out shot by shot
then change our minds rewrite everything
we're going to make sure it all gets told
even if we only see and hear it
you and me
we're going to make a movie

let's get dirty

show me how to money
show me how you dip
show me how to dance for cash
you can keep the tips

let’s get dirty, because we can’t afford the bath
let’s get dirty, because the future’s been forecast
let’s get dirty, because i’m feeling you forever
let’s get dirty, let’s get dirty, let’s get dirty

let’s get dirty, because they turned off all the water
let’s get dirty, because the class is staying sexy
let’s get dirty, because the quiet kills the mood
let’s get dirty, let’s get dirty, let’s get dirty

mark the rigger

you know, the very first thing i'm going to do when i get to Virginia
is sell this car
and throw away all the shit you hung on the mirror
i want you to say

i mean

do you expect me to call
and claim that i miss you?

when i'm drunk like this
it gets pretty easy to forget you
up here
on the third floor
in a one bedroom apartment
on hamilton avenue
i turn the tv as loud as it's makers allow
and fall asleep to the sound of public broadcasting

i've been driving on a suspended license for months
but once the car's sold
that thought and the memories of you
will both hitch a ride
with whichever
poor piss
pays me money for a 1999
purple Ford Taurus

i met all my neighbors
and i guess they're pretty all right
but Thomas
next door
says he doesn't like Van Halen
and Guy Down The Hall's dog bites

there are half empty cans of ravioli
a pan that i haven't washed for weeks
and all of the twenty some photos we ever took
kept in a box by the sink

we were young and easily impressed
we knew we'd never grow old
that's why we got tattoos
that's why the very first thing i'm going to do
when i get to Virginia
is sell this god damned car